!!!!!STRESS!!!!!

Ok, apparently I've been super stressed the past couple of weeks. I thought I was handling everything fine. C'mon, it's just life. My work schedule changed so I have more time to do what I want to do during the day. This is fabulous. I can chill, read books, watch tv, go on walks, play with friends...you know, all that fun stuff.

My mind has been racing though. What about school? What are my classes again? Why hasn't my financial aid come through? What if I don't get financial aid? Where am I going to live? What if it's not a good neighborhood? What if my ward sucks? If I move to North Orem will I be too far away from anyone to do anything? Are my roommates going to help deep clean the house? What if they don't? What if Ben thinks we are total flakes? Am I overloading myself with working about 60 hours and going to school full time? What if I don't get into my program? I don't want to have to wait another year to get into my program!!! My brother and sister are moving, when am I going to have time and money to visit them and see my adorable niece? How am I going to afford this, that, and inbetween?!!!!! BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!! MORE MORE MORE!!!

Obviously too many things are going through my head. Despite having more free time, my mind is causing my body to get super super sick. I've had a cold now for over a week. And it sucks. I keep thinking I'm on the tail end, just a stuffy nose, cough, and voice loss. Nope, today I woke up with the headache caused from colds. Ugh!!! Last week I had hives on my legs. I now have a cold sore forming on my lip. Great first impression at my new ward, I have a cold sore and it's disgusting. "Hi, I'm so and so...would you mind looking at my eyes instead of this huge sore protruding from my mouth?"

I need to calm down...focus on one thing at a time...Maybe convince my brother to give me a massage or something...Don't let life overwhelm me.

Sometimes I feel that's all life is sometimes. So many different things pulling me apart. Causing: !!!!!STRESS!!!!!