Freedom!

This past year has been really interesting when it comes to my dating life. I feel like the Lord finally blessed me with some experiences. I didn't necessarily have a relationship with these fellas but it taught me a lot about myself, what is best for me, and what/who to watch out for. This last Spring I had a really intense experience but realized it was never going to work out, and I knew it from the beginning but I still held on and hoped that things would develop. The Lord had other plans. I feel like this past year has been so dramatic though that after I finally accepted the fact that I was not going to get together with this guy I felt so free! I don't need to be in a realationship, I don't need to be dating a lot of guys, I don't need my love life to be what makes me happy. I can make happiness and joy in myself and what I do with my life.

I guess I'm just feeling lonesome right now because this time last year I met this guy and he was my first kiss. I guess I'm just longing to be swooned and have someone interested in me. Oh well. I don't need that though. I'm happy and content with my life right now. That's all that matters.

I have to say, this might be the best summer that I've ever had, just because I have so much freedom! Yes!!!

Pic

I thought I'd add more pictures to my lovely blog to track my progress. This is a picture of me last summer when I tried out for The Biggest Loser. I personally think it's a cute picture.

My Personal Greek Siren

Gave in again...Darn you processed sugar!!!!!! Moderation though. Moderation. As long as I'm not bingeing that's what's important. I'm trying not to accept the offer of processed sugar all the time too. I respectfully decline...or I wait till the very last second when I'm on my way out the door to grab a cookie and quickly leave so there's no more temptation. I'm slowly learning new tricks. GO ME!

EXCITING NEWS!!!!

This week I've worked really hard to reach my goal of exercising at least four days. It was hard and I wanted to quit some days, but I just kept going. I found that I love doing the P90X Kenpo X (aka kickboxing). And I try to run when I can, as long as I don't sleep in too late. That's going to take some practice still. I'm really enjoying the different activities that make me want to exercise. Yeah baby!

I did meet my old foe this week...processed sugar...We had a stand off. Teasing me with homemade oreo cookies and chocolate moose cake with strawberries. Unfortunately I gave in a few days! NO!!!! This week though, I will ignore it's call like a Greek Siren and will resist its evil temptation.

Exciting news though. I LOST FIVE POUNDS!!! Yes! Success. My hard work has paid off. This was the boost that I needed to keep going. Yeah baby! I've got this. Can't wait till next week when I find out how much I lost.

5 miles

My parents have been gracious enough to let me eat at their place when I need to as long as I help out around the house. I figure it's a pretty good deal. I've decided to implace more cardio and to do such I'll jog over to their house and back. While I'm there I can lift weights with their machine to do some muscle toning and I can eat a little breakfast while I'm there. Today I jogged there and got some breakfast, I was so tired that I couldn't really do weights but I did jog back. I was a little slower and had a longer cooldown walk than normal, but I didn't want to push it too much. It's going to take some time to build up to the level of actually jogging and weight lifting. I am so happy with the results that I'm seeing though. I'll have to take a picture soon and add it to my blog so I can chart my progress visually. Yay! I'm so unbelievable happy with the progress that I've made. I'm excited to keep going.

PS-I weighed myself last night. I've gained some weight, but I'm pretty sure that's because I was sick and not really being active at all. I'm not letting it get to me though. It's the progress that I've seen within my body, how my clothes fit, and how I feel that really charts my progress.

P90X

For a few days I stayed with my brother and sister-in-law and I left my exercise clothes at home because I was I'm still getting over my cold. I didn't want to push myself too hard and have a relapse. My body has been craving a good jog though. I want to be outside sweating through my pores, breathing hard, getting that fabulous running high that makes me feel like I can do anything in the world!!! But I've been holding back...While visiting though we got out P90X, I just decided to use my pj's for exercise clothes. My bro put in an "easier" exercise. He said I could modify and do what I needed to do, that he struggled his first time doing the exercises and couldn't finish the workout and that's ok. I was a little nervous. I heard the workout is a killer! It actually wasn't a problem. I had a lot of fun, and it was fun doing it with my brother. He jokes around, makes funny noises, and made a load of fun. He was so cute with my niece getting her to help him stretch and jump around when we did.

I was so proud that I could do the whole workout on my first time. I'm definitely improving. I can tell a difference in myself and I'm so proud of the work I've done. My pants are starting to fit looser. I tried on the next size smaller and they almost fit! Yes! I can't wait to get out there and do sweat up a storm.

I've decided I'm going to try to up my cardio so I can loose two sizes this summer. I want to get my dad involved and so he can work on himself too. I'm going to jog to their house, go walking with my dad, and then jog home. That's almost three hours of cardio. HOLY CRAP! But I can do it. Hence why it's my own biggest loser summer.