My Personal Greek Siren

Gave in again...Darn you processed sugar!!!!!! Moderation though. Moderation. As long as I'm not bingeing that's what's important. I'm trying not to accept the offer of processed sugar all the time too. I respectfully decline...or I wait till the very last second when I'm on my way out the door to grab a cookie and quickly leave so there's no more temptation. I'm slowly learning new tricks. GO ME!

EXCITING NEWS!!!!

This week I've worked really hard to reach my goal of exercising at least four days. It was hard and I wanted to quit some days, but I just kept going. I found that I love doing the P90X Kenpo X (aka kickboxing). And I try to run when I can, as long as I don't sleep in too late. That's going to take some practice still. I'm really enjoying the different activities that make me want to exercise. Yeah baby!

I did meet my old foe this week...processed sugar...We had a stand off. Teasing me with homemade oreo cookies and chocolate moose cake with strawberries. Unfortunately I gave in a few days! NO!!!! This week though, I will ignore it's call like a Greek Siren and will resist its evil temptation.

Exciting news though. I LOST FIVE POUNDS!!! Yes! Success. My hard work has paid off. This was the boost that I needed to keep going. Yeah baby! I've got this. Can't wait till next week when I find out how much I lost.

5 miles

My parents have been gracious enough to let me eat at their place when I need to as long as I help out around the house. I figure it's a pretty good deal. I've decided to implace more cardio and to do such I'll jog over to their house and back. While I'm there I can lift weights with their machine to do some muscle toning and I can eat a little breakfast while I'm there. Today I jogged there and got some breakfast, I was so tired that I couldn't really do weights but I did jog back. I was a little slower and had a longer cooldown walk than normal, but I didn't want to push it too much. It's going to take some time to build up to the level of actually jogging and weight lifting. I am so happy with the results that I'm seeing though. I'll have to take a picture soon and add it to my blog so I can chart my progress visually. Yay! I'm so unbelievable happy with the progress that I've made. I'm excited to keep going.

PS-I weighed myself last night. I've gained some weight, but I'm pretty sure that's because I was sick and not really being active at all. I'm not letting it get to me though. It's the progress that I've seen within my body, how my clothes fit, and how I feel that really charts my progress.

P90X

For a few days I stayed with my brother and sister-in-law and I left my exercise clothes at home because I was I'm still getting over my cold. I didn't want to push myself too hard and have a relapse. My body has been craving a good jog though. I want to be outside sweating through my pores, breathing hard, getting that fabulous running high that makes me feel like I can do anything in the world!!! But I've been holding back...While visiting though we got out P90X, I just decided to use my pj's for exercise clothes. My bro put in an "easier" exercise. He said I could modify and do what I needed to do, that he struggled his first time doing the exercises and couldn't finish the workout and that's ok. I was a little nervous. I heard the workout is a killer! It actually wasn't a problem. I had a lot of fun, and it was fun doing it with my brother. He jokes around, makes funny noises, and made a load of fun. He was so cute with my niece getting her to help him stretch and jump around when we did.

I was so proud that I could do the whole workout on my first time. I'm definitely improving. I can tell a difference in myself and I'm so proud of the work I've done. My pants are starting to fit looser. I tried on the next size smaller and they almost fit! Yes! I can't wait to get out there and do sweat up a storm.

I've decided I'm going to try to up my cardio so I can loose two sizes this summer. I want to get my dad involved and so he can work on himself too. I'm going to jog to their house, go walking with my dad, and then jog home. That's almost three hours of cardio. HOLY CRAP! But I can do it. Hence why it's my own biggest loser summer.

Lacking In Progress...sickness

My goal to exercise has been halted due to sickness. Doesn't that always happen though? I know it happens to me. The thing that is different is that I 'm not going to lose sight of my goal even though I'm sick. Yes, I've taken a longer break from exercise than I wanted to, but when it comes to a cold, you do what you can. My cold kept getting worse, but now I'm on the upside. Even though I'm still pretty congested, I'm going to go for a walk tomorrow, on relatively flat ground, that way I don't have a coughing fit or something terrible when it comes to hills. And a little confession, I've eaten a ton of junk lately. Again, not getting down about, but changing. :) I feel really good about this summer, my work schedule is wide open during the week days and I can do all the things I have planned. O

h, I did have to buy a pair of jeans, my others were worn out. I bought it from a store that has cheaper jeans. I went down a pant size in that store. YAY!!!!! I'm stoked about that. Two more pant sizes to go and I'll be an ELATED girl! Skinnier me here I come!!!!

Day One...

Ok, today being my first day of Megan's Biggest Loser experience I started the day out right. I woke up and walk/jogged to my parents house. I'm not yet to the point that I can just jog the whole time, and even my jog is more like a trot. Hey, I'm starting somewhere though. It's about three miles to my parents to that wasn't too bad. I decided to ride my bike back to my apartment too. Most of it's down hill so there wasn't a lot of peddling involved, but it's something! I have a bike close by. As I was peddling in the flat areas though, I noticed that I'm in a little better shape than last summer. My legs weren't aching after a couple of blocks and my chest wasn't burning as bad from asthma. It was easier. Yes!!! That's awesome. Baby steps at a time. And my eating habit have been really good. I feel so positive about myself today. I'm excited to keep this up and develope myself further.

My Own Biggest Loser Experience: Starting NOW!

Last summer I applied for the Biggest Loser. I got pretty far. I made call backs. I met a director for the West area, they did an interview with me for the show. It was hard, I had devulge a lot of information, and they liked me and my story, they felt that I could go far, but there was a little snag...I didn't have a partner. BLAST! I was so sad. This last year I could have lost a hundred pounds and focused on changing myself to the beautiful woman I see in the mirror but because of the fear of failure I don't try hard enough. The work that goes into losing weight is gruling, but the heartache of being overweight is crushing to my soul. There are so many things that I want to experience in life! The only thing holding me back is me. That, my friends, is going to change.

I have many reasons to lose weight, the number one reason is to feel good about myself. I want to be able to walk down the street with confidence that people are jealous of! The only way to get confidence though is building it myself. I am a true believer of positive thinking. I'm not the most positive person, especially when it comes to me personally, but I want to be positive. I've decided that I need to build a positivity tower that will shine for all to see. When I start getting discouraged, tired, or down on myself, POSITIVITY THINKING BABY!

Another reason is to be healthy. Being healthy is important now and in the future. I've been carrying so much weight around physically and mentally it's time to purge that. I want to be healthy to live a long and rewarding life. Someday I want to have a family, but the only way that I can spend time and be with my family is to keep myself in shape. I want to have children someday and I do not want them to fall into the habits that I've started to develope. Those habits are about to be broken! I could drop weight quickly, and that's great, but only when I change myself with how I think, what I eat, and the habits I've formed when emotional is something that will make a big difference.

I want desperately to be in shape! I hate having to have limited options when shopping. Often times I have few stores that I enter to buy clothes and most of those stores I have to look for the biggest size possible, it's humiliating! Clothes my size are expensive too! I go through a pair of jeans every 4-6 months because of what I like to call "chub rub." It's so frustrating. I want to be able to go into a store with friends and exchange outfits and see how amazing we all look. I want to borrow things from my friends and show off my stuff. I want to be able to be in a crowd and have a guy check me out with desire instead of repulsion or be an attempt for a rebound. I'm sick of being the rebound girl. I want a guy to be attracted to me body and soul. No more back burner girl. I want to be the girl that the boys fight for!!! I want to date, have fun, and fall in love.

I didn't make The Biggest Loser, but I can be my own biggest loser. I can accomplish any goal I set forth doing. The summer is the perfect time to do it. Since January I've been working on going to the gym a couple of times a week. This last semester of school was a complete rollercoaster though being my first year back to college in four years, my grandmother passing away, and social drama. I didn't always spend as much time as I could in the gym but this is the summer for me to take care of myself. I don't have anything to distract me and I need to put me first right now. Start living my life. I'm going to be more dedicated to my goals to lose weight. Speaking of goals I better post them so ya'll can check up on me and my posts.

Megan's Biggest Loser Goals:

1. Exercise at a minimum 4 days a week
2. Walk/Jog 1+ miles
3. Find activities that I enjoy doing. (Hiking, bike riding, or sports of some sort)
4. Eat healthier (fruits and veggies)
5. BREAK THE ADDICTION TO SUGAR (It might taste good on the lips, but how does it feel on the hips?! Terrible, that's how it feels)

I know I can do this, and it's not going to come off as quick as the show (because I'm not exercising 8 hours a day) but I can do it. I want to lose two sizes by the time fall comes. I'm going to be one hot lady on campus! Even more important though, I'm going to learn to motivate myself, rely on my own will power, and accomplish this goal with the Lord by my side. For only through the Lord can this be possible.

I NEED YOU HELP! Please, if you can give any encouraging thoughts through this process would be appreciated. I need the moral support. You are fabulous. Time to lose some weight!